Pure Random

After another night of deep discussions with a couple of friends, it seems that one of the basic questions that still has remained un-answered for me is the existence of pure/real randomness. Is there such a thing as a random behavior which has no scientific explanations? Not something seeming random due to lack of contextual information but something random for god itself.

This question easily leads to the concept of free will and its existence.

Will I ever find the answer?

Eternal Sunshine

After a long period of not seeing that many movies and watching crappy mediocre ones every once in a while, I enjoyed this movie really a lot, absolutely fantastic : "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless mind"... phewww...

Thanks to Yaser for providing it and Kasra for recommending it :).

Post Storm

It sure feels strange ... a project we were engaged with seriously for the past couple of years is out of the door, leaving a mesmerizing calm atmosphere behind for us ... a rather static state, it is, which brings out confusion at times, confused in breaking the symmetry and selecting among the infinite options ... something which was away for a long time ... in times where there was one thing to do every day and every second, and that was to push the whole project into a converging state of acceptable quality ... something which would ride you everyday... a storm that showed you absolute failure inches away a lot of times...it was quite fun... it was quite hard ... it had a world to learn from ... it added a lot more scars ... scars that are seeds to power ...

GDC 2010 Europe

Getting ready for GDC 2010 in cologne tomorrow. There are quite a few interesting sessions which I've already marked. Lets see how things go.

Game Engine Design Course

We will be running a Game Engine Design and Implementation course for those interested in knowing more about the topics and gaining some insight into the inner workings of modern Game Engines.
More information can be found here.

Real Men

Tough times ... really dense ... no chance for under-achieving ... focus necessary ... hard work ... hope ... fighting desperation ... patience ... hanging tight ... patience ... holding together ... believing ... patience ... trying ... ignoring exhaustion ...

All that fuels me in this final path is the real men around me ... oh these are the real warriors ... how rare ... how mighty ... how blessed I must be ...

believing ... patience ...

Sinner

Oh dear lord ... forgive me for I have sinned ... forgive me for the unforgivable sin ... a sin with deep roots in ignorance ... a sin of not being conscious over memory usage from the first day ... having blind eyes, deaf ears and irresponsible hands...
Upon my forgiveness ... I shall promise thee to be memory conscious from the first line in the next evolution step of the code base ... acceptance of all these sacrifices is all I hope ... every bit will be measured ... I shall tame the beast ...