Real Men

Tough times ... really dense ... no chance for under-achieving ... focus necessary ... hard work ... hope ... fighting desperation ... patience ... hanging tight ... patience ... holding together ... believing ... patience ... trying ... ignoring exhaustion ...

All that fuels me in this final path is the real men around me ... oh these are the real warriors ... how rare ... how mighty ... how blessed I must be ...

believing ... patience ...

Sinner

Oh dear lord ... forgive me for I have sinned ... forgive me for the unforgivable sin ... a sin with deep roots in ignorance ... a sin of not being conscious over memory usage from the first day ... having blind eyes, deaf ears and irresponsible hands...
Upon my forgiveness ... I shall promise thee to be memory conscious from the first line in the next evolution step of the code base ... acceptance of all these sacrifices is all I hope ... every bit will be measured ... I shall tame the beast ...